Thursday, April 12, 2007

Husbands loud toots =Can't sleep=analyzing the current state of my heart....

Well, here goes Blog insert #3 after 3 months of having the dog gone thing. For some reason I know this thing is good for me to write on, yet having so many sad thoughts swirling inside of me makes it seem much more risky...and unappealing. I mean who wants to say they have been feeling sad. Sadness makes me believe something major is wrong with me or at least worry about it in the middle of the night.... Yet there is this other side of my heart that somehow knows sadness is really not MAJOR...moreso a common emotion our culture is very uncomfortable with. I have no answers here.
So, I read the Bible. It says something about Jesus comforting those who mourn. I read on in other places about His yoke being easy and his burden light. I'd like to mourn and be comforted by Jesus rather than kicking my lifestyle in overdrive to avoid admitting I'm grieving some things. I'd like to feel what Jesus's yoke feels like. I don't honestly think I know what his backpack feels like. But something tells me he might show me someday. Oh how I long for that day. And a good night's sleep.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Mmm. Good thoughts my dear Jules. You're so good at expressing yourself. What a blessing that is!!!

I love you :) And I'm SO glad you're blogging! I guess I should start doing that again...